Help with the love of my life?

ok so this might be long and with alot of typos but excuse it lol......any way so i am a gay male and i really have a high drive intrestingly enough anyways i have had a very very very bad childhood which causes me to not open up to people alot its hard to explain any ways i met this one guy last year and it was unlike anyone i ever met he is amazing at first i couldnt understand why i was feeling the way i did but it hit me that i fell in love with him really quick and i know people say that love takes time and i was one of those believers until i met him and i swear i truely fell in love with him....we connected on so many diffrenet levels it was crazy. he opened up to me and i opened up to him which is weird because i never do that ....it just kinda happened. i can tell he started feeling for me as well but then i moved away we talk all the time and see eachother often but as friends and i really want him because i know we will grow old together its like puppy love i dont know what it is but the thing that scares me is that he just kinda came out so he is a little into the partying stage and goes out alot i mean we are both 21 i like to party to but i have matured fast because i had to be on my own for quite sometime and he hasnt he was sheltered and has everything he wants and does not appreciate things sometimes but he isnt a bad person dont get me wrong .... i just dont know what to do any thoughts?